I am Jack's colon.

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 14:54:54 GMT

i am back in New York... but i'm leaving in a few hours.

my week at home was ok, pretty lazy. lots of driving around and making fun of Asia. lots of watching movies. i'm still dying for Brad Neely though. Kellie... we really need to finish that.

Asia graduated sunday. it was very cute. i made such noise when she went up to get her diploma. she just started laughing and rushed off the stage. then we took pictures and she took pictures with her friends and i took pictures with some teachers and some of her classmates that i am friends with and some kids that were in my class and had yonger siblings in Asia's class. it was fun, but hot.

then was New York. monday i came in early and went to Think because i had an hour to kill before my appointment. there, i ran into Emily D and we chatted. then she waited for me while i was at my appointment and together we walked to Leah's apartment and forced Leah to get dressed. then we went out and got champagne (note it was 2pm), stopped by Walgreens and then Ziggiz for food, and then went back to Leah's and sipped champagne while watching Art School Confidential. halfway through the movie, we decided to climb out the window and smoke cigarettes off the balcony instead. and then we stuffed ourselves full of chinese food and tried not to move too much. and so the night followed.

tuesday Leah and i got up and ran an errand to Times Square. we wandered around a lot, then went back to her place and hung around. around 6 i left to pick up wine and then met Janell, Dani, Emily D, and Liz at an indian place in the LES. we got pretty drunk and ate huge dinners for less than $5. it was bitchin. then we headed to a cafe where someone's friend was singing on her piano. she was alright. Emily and i just sat outside the door, smoking and talking about life.

Janell, Emily, and i went back to 201 and drank the rest of the wine. we had some heart-wrenching talks, as usual, then went to bed after i had a slight altercation with Renee. whatever.

well anyway. back home today. my train leaves at 1. i ought to get ready.. i still need to go to Leah's and get all my stuff.

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Mon, 28 May 2007 18:41:12 GMT

i'm back in Fall River now! the rest of my visit was really great... sort of. Mike's party was wonderful but Shirley's wasn't so much. i got in a big fight with one of the guys that was there. he was really cute and seemed nice at first when he was smoking with me on the fire escape. and then he got wicked drunk and kept banging on the drum set and freaking out, so i started yelling at him and he refused to stop, so i fucking flipped out and left. it was pretty funny.

i actually have to go back to NY soon. i have to see my therapist at NYU to try to work out next semester. and i'm considering seeing my psychiatrist too because i ran out of Prozac and now i'm out of Seroquel and it sort of sucks. we'll see. but my appointment to see Reji is june 4th and that's the day after Asia's graduation, so we might all go up together, me and the fam. that would be a lot of fun. i hope we do that.

anyway. people have been seriously slacking on the livejournal updates. come on, guys.

tomorrow is Janell's birthday. fuck. i couldn't extend my stay even more, which blows. i guess i'll get her something today and send it overnight or something.

call me, i'll be around. even though i'm very sick.

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ps. i saw BUG with my dad last night... it was really bad.

Wed, 23 May 2007 17:24:57 GMT

so i came to New York on thursday.. and i'm still here. i stayed with Leah and Conor, and succeeded in getting them both sick. now i'm staying with Janell. it's been fun! so fun in fact, i am not leaving until sunday. Mike is having a party friday and Shirley is throwing a party saturday. so i figured i'd stay. especially because we saw Mike's apartment last night in Hoboken and it's fucking amazing. he's right on the water, and on the 19th floor, overlooking the new york city skyline. it was gorgeous. we just hung out and drank, smoking cigarettes on the balcony and watching funny youtube videos. then we walked down to the water and sat on some rocks, me and Mike, and we just talked a lot. it was the first time i really got to talk to Mike, and he's actually very cool once you get past the many layers of awkwardness. it's too bad i didn't get to know him better when he lived a few doors down. but he's only living a few blocks away next semester. hopefully i'll be here next semester. i'm trying very hard.

in other news, i've been listening to a lot of Tegan and Sara and i'm sort of obsessed. and i'm reading Me Talk Pretty One Day whenever Janell and everyone else is at work or class. it's pretty funny so far. i'm enjoying his honest perspective.

i'm getting sicker and sicker, and every time i stop to think, i get really anxious. so i'm trying not to think so much. easy. maybe not the smartest thing to do, but i'm doing it. i can't care anymore. i just want to do what i can to be happy in the present. fuck the future.

perhaps i'm only thinking this because i ran out of Prozac and haven't taken anything for several days. in lieu of the meds, i've prescribed myself with perpetual Tegan and Sara coupled with youtube cats and dogs, with a hearty handful of cheap vodka/ pink lemonade cocktails. it's keeping me upbeat.

today's goal is to get Janell to watch Shaun of the Dead, because she has never seen it, and that's just not right. i also need to do my laundry since i am out of clean clothes now that i have extended my visit. i should also sell back my text books and see what i can get out of them.

i'm sitting in Janell's room, but it used to be my room. i keep forgetting. i don't know what to do about my living situation next year. will i even be in New York? fuck, i told myself i'd stop thinking.

this was a really weird entry.

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Mon, 07 May 2007 03:17:25 GMT

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't write this stupid fucking paper! it needs to be 12 pages and i have 5 pages from the midterm that i need to make a helluva lot longer. and it's due tomorrow at 1130am. i think. hah. FUCK. it's the harajuku girls paper so it's not so awful, but i just wrote 8 pages to add to 4 i had before on a really disgustingly stupid collection of short stories for my race & science fiction class. and i had so much caffeine today and like 4 hours of sleep last night and now i'm sort of delirious. i don't know what to do. i think i should try to dish out like two pages tonight and then i'll wake up early and polish off 3 or 4 and aim for 11 pages and be a slacker.

i really shouldn't have gone out at like 8 last night and said fuck you to my term papers cause now i'm stressed out. and i don't know what to do about that nice guy or about the bad guy or the hot guy or life in general.

tomorrow i need to lock myself in Think and do all my existentialism shit. then i have group. then dinner with Leah. and then studying. and then tuesday means more studying, then my last final at 2, then coney island with Emily and Janell and a great roommate dinner and a last night with them because they both leave wednesday and i don't leave til saturday. what to do what to do...

Fri, 04 May 2007 00:23:37 GMT

i can't wait to go home.

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 13:04:24 GMT

i could live the rest of my life splayed out on the shaded grass in Washington Square Park with my friends.

my shoulders are sunburnt and i find this very satisfying.

my presentation today is going to suck. but then i'm having dinner with Leah and going to watch a movie for class and then i'm going to lounge around. i can't wait for the semester to be over.

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Tue, 24 Apr 2007 03:20:20 GMT

alright so i hate that there was this long dry spell romantically in my life and now i'm like wicked horny and i have a bunch of options. i don't know which way to go. like. damn. it just gets so hard. and then everything else in my life seems to be falling apart, and i'm totally going to fail school because i never go to class anymore and i have a shitload due from so much slacking throughout the semester. i just want to have fun right now. this is lame.

i dunno man. just don't know.

but Kellie Perez is coming sooooon!

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 23:29:13 GMT

ahhh! so Janell and i received our room assignments today and we're in the same suite and i think we both have singles. i'm dying to check out the room. i realized that i'm really gonna miss our apartment because it's so fucking awesome and huge. but next year should be fun! Ellie is living right next door to us!! so i'm psyched. i love Ellie.

so yes. yes yes yes.

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Thu, 29 Mar 2007 13:13:11 GMT

so Jeffrey was nice enough to send me a link so i could see what the next Harry Potter book cover will look like and i've been stewing over what it might all mean. and i know it's futile to try to figure out what the title might give away because her titles are always so vague. but i'm thinking that the structure they are in on the cover must be another world or some alternative universe because the sky is a different color. and that the structure is the original that the Arch in the Dept. of Mysteries was taken from because it looks like it'd be the same architecture. so maybe they're in some kind of passing place, like Narnia's Woods Between the Worlds type of place. just an idea. and they're both looking away at an unseen third party so many it's like all the people who have died by Voldemort's hand. haha maybe this is all just a crazy stretch. we'll see! July 21!

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Sun, 25 Feb 2007 19:27:43 GMT

Janell and Emily are gonna come to Fall River for the first weekend of spring break! hdjkghjdks we're gonna see the Lizzie Borden house and it's gonna be peachy keen! i'm actually wicked excited, seeing them out of a New York University context, in my hometown! i'm so psycheddd. i want to make a short list of stuff we need to do so they can get the full Fall River experience. fhdjkhf haha so good.

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 01:53:30 GMT

i got into Residential College! woohoo!

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 14:27:00 GMT

Kevin Devine was amazing. i'm so happy i went.

i love my suitemates but am pretty angry in general with everything else. school stinks. i'm gonna be 20 soon.

i finished Chronicles of Narnia, finally. now i'm gonna read Bridge to Terabithia so i can see the movie. then i think Keys to the Kingdom again before Lady Friday comes out in March!!

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Thu, 01 Feb 2007 03:56:25 GMT

when i had said i would appreciate a break in the monotony of life... this isn't exactly what i'd had in mind.

it's so unfair.

R.I.P. Corey Reis

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 03:27:20 GMT

so this weekend has been alright. Sara moved out, but we haven't gotten anyone new. hopefully it stays that way, cause we're all happier here without her. i haven't been up to too much. went to a party at Water Street last night and got plastered. it was quite embarrassing but hilarious. i had a lot of deep conversations with people.

oh, we ran into Professor Fitterman at the Salvation Army! it was so delightful! haha. he's adorable and i'm in love with him.

i don't really have anything else to say. except that i am coming home this thursday night and so Kellie Perez should get ready.

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Fri, 19 Jan 2007 20:11:45 GMT

uhhhh so i dropped Intro to the New Testament. it was way too hard and i need to maintain my 3.0, so i'm sorry Jesus, but you're just not worth it. instead i am taking Race&Science Fiction which sounds cool. and i'm still psyched about Existentialism and still wary of Enviro and still open to RaceGender&Media. my dad just called me and i have an appointment with the woman he knows at HoughtonMifflin. she says she can't guarantee me a job there but i'd work for free. i just want in. haha.

gotta go to work.

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Wed, 17 Jan 2007 22:44:27 GMT

SCHOOL IS SO INTENSE! i can't deal! already! man. so i had intro to the new testament this afternoon. my professor seems... well, he's charming. he doesn't seem like a dick, i guess he seems like a cool dude. the class seems a little dry, but hopedully it won't be. he gave us a shitload of reading for monday. ugh. so after class i picked up all the books i need for my existentialism class, except for the book that i need to read first, because they didn't have it. i need to check Shakespeare&Co. and see if they have it. i also need to buy the books for my "Bible" class.. one in particular because i need to read a lot from it for monday, including several passages from the OLD Testament, and a large chunk out of the course packet i picked up from the copy store. it's HUGE. and was expensive as well. god. and so was the packet for my Race, Gender&Media class. but that class seems really really cool, so i'm excited. except that that is also a shitload of work with a 12-15 page paper at the end, as well as a midterm and a presentation and response papers. looks like Environmental is going to be the least amount of work even though i know it's going to be my worst subject. ugh school is so hard this semester. dammit. too much reading. and i forgot about my Enviro lab. GREAT. more work and nasty. just NASTY.

anyway. i want to read Kierkegaard but i don't have it. and i can't bear to start the Bible stuff. looks like i'm gonna read Narnia for a bit and then see Pan's Labyrinth and never do homework EVER.

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Wed, 17 Jan 2007 03:14:57 GMT

today was actually pretty great. went to Environmental at 11am. it was pretty lame and crowded and Pataki is still a weirdo, but it seems easy enough. then i went to the diner and wrote for a little bit and ate. then to my existentialism class, which is obviously now my favorite class ever. my professor is so fucking cute and awesome and i'm so psyched about the class. it seems like a crazy amount of work but i'm totally willing to do it all. i'm a little intimidated but whateverrrrrrrrr because it seems like so much fun. and for our term papers, she said we could do a traditional paper, or we could do a project, like a poem or even a painting or a film with a short paper to go with it! i've already decided i want to write a short piece of fiction and i'm so excitedddd fdgshkgljhfdsgjd man. i cannot wait. we already have reading to do and i need to buy my books. woo!

tomorrow i have stupid Introduction to the New Testament with Sara. might be.. interesting. i hope. and then yucky Race, Gender, & the Media, which i am less excited about. ugh. yea.

so yea. i'm nice and tired right now so i think i'll just read or watch a movie and then go to bed.

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ps. i ordered two tickets for Kevin Devine. wutwut. ?

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 14:14:33 GMT

i live for drunk texting from Kellie Perez. thank you, for sustaining me.

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Thu, 11 Jan 2007 02:16:44 GMT

oh, and as if life couldn't get any better, The Shins is playing at the Virgin Megastore in Union Square on Jan22nd! gfhjkghsjfgkhjkfds i am so there.

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 00:15:57 GMT

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fall 06 grades:
A-
B
B+
A-

bfdjkhgskjd i'm so excited. i can't believe i did so well! and i SHOULD have a 3.0 now and so i SHOULD be guaran-damn-teed into CAS!! gfkjdhgjkf fuckfuckfuck i hope so. i hate GSP. fucking probation my ass. but wow i am so excited about my spanish haha. A- for not even going to class. yessssss.

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Thu, 28 Dec 2006 03:40:19 GMT

so i'm at Carol's apartment right now. she's dyeing my hair for me.. just a darker brown, i'm tired of having orange hair. and Asia cut it for me last night so now it ends at my collarbone. i like it. i need to trim my bangs though.

vacation has been alright. Christmas was.... average. i got a digital cameraaaa. and i love it.

i'm leaving for NY on tuesday. it's so weird to think that soon, i won't have "breaks" to come home. i'll probably be living in New York in an apartment with a steady job. i'll be an adult. it's just odd.

i'm really ambivalent when it comes to growing up.

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Sun, 24 Dec 2006 05:24:47 GMT

blahhh...... everyone is gone. i feel like i'm the only person in Broome. i made my dad chocolate chips cookies from scratch. they're pretty good.

i'm pretty much all packed. i can't figure out why i overpack every single time. i'm only going home for like a week and then coming back... yet i have my humongous suitcase packed tightly and like ten thousand tshirts and tanks in there.

i can't wait to see Bunny and to get my digital camera and to sleep in my bed.

i have so much reading to do. Kellie Perez, what movies should we make a point to see together this week?

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Sat, 23 Dec 2006 07:14:03 GMT

i hate being 19. i want to be 21. i want to be able to answer "yes i would love to go" when the boy i like invites me to a bar. this SUCKS. he's too cute, i can't take it anymore haha. i need to stop falling hard for guys. it's getting a little desperate.

i want to cut my hair really short over break. like.. to my jawline, short. or a little longer than that. and i haven't decided on my bangs. i might leave them as they are or do a straight across cut. i'll ask Asia.

i'm coming home a few hours earlier. around 515 sunday night. i hate that Asia has a job. she'll be working when i come home and then also on christmas. and then several days during the week. and it's annoying that i can't hang out with her when i want to. haha.

and i started HP5 again today because i'm seasonally depressed. whatever.

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Wed, 20 Dec 2006 17:00:32 GMT

I GOT AN A- IN POETRY! i'm so psyched. i want to know what i got on that last paper. it must have been good. fhdksghkdsg i'm so happy about this. spanish i don't know but i'm hoping for at least a B. and math.. uugh. i don't know about that final. i took it last night and it was awful. i did a lot of guesswork and flat out gave up on 3 problems out of 20 haha. i came home around 830, followed by Sarah, Emily, and then Janell in like a 5 minute period. it was cool. and we all hung out and waited up with Emily because she was leaving at 4am and decided not to go to sleep.

i go home in 4.5 days! that's pretty soon. maybe i SHOULD pack. today i'm having a last lunch with Julia and then i need to print out all the HOU slides and also a copy of the first test that he's going to send to me since i lost mine. and i think i'm also going to stop by Professor Fitterman's office and pick up my paper and say goodbye. i really liked that guy. then i need to study hardcore and try very hard not to read Harry Potter 4, which i foolishly decided to start yesterday morning.

tomorrow is the last final - HOU. ugh. it's my death but i'll be so happy when it's over. Rachel and i got a B on our presentation and i really do not care haha. i'm just glad that lab is over and i won't have to think about this shit for the rest of my life after tomorrow. and this weekend.. i have no idea what to do. i'll probably just sit around reading Harry Potter 4, 5, and then 6. hahaha. and then i want to start in on some of the stories in the anthology Emily and Janell gave me. and i need to work on dad's christmas presents. and pack. and Janell is leaving saturday night so i will be here alone for a whole day and it'll be sad but then i'll go home! ghfghjdfkghjfd.

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Sat, 09 Dec 2006 02:37:51 GMT

Christmas shopping is confusing.